Goddamn it
I just wanted to see you smile, or laugh; does that make me selfish? Of course I just keep replaying everything in my mind, trying to make sense of it all; what I should’ve said different or done different, if that would have even helped.
Now I just feel bad about it all, which probably only makes you feel worse. The total opposite of what I wanted… irony, I guess.
I just can’t seem to accept you being unhappy. Why would I want to? I don’t want to make it worse either.
Call me a fucking stupid optimist dreamer, I just want everything to be GOOD.
